wish i can see the light..

All those days, watching from the windows
All those years, outside looking in
All that time, never even knowing
Just how blind I've been
Now I'm here, blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here, suddenly I see
Standing here, it's oh, so clear
I'm where I'm meant to be
And at last, I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last, I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once, everything looks different
Now that I see you
All those days, chasing down a daydream
All those years, living in a blur
All that time, never truly seeing
Things the way they were
Now she's here, shining in the starlight
Now she's here, suddenly I know
If she's here, it's crystal clear
I'm where I'm meant to go

wait for so long time for this movie..
felt warm and touching while watching
i got tears out when the scene...
princess finally get together with her parents..
when i was little gal, i did not felt bored
to watch little mermaid like thousand of time..
n i hav a Disney soundtrack album with me too..
disney song do really heal my heart when i was unhappy.. :)
happy now~who knows may be i could see those light later..

自己的倒影..

在夜深人静的时候，从倒影看到的自己

才知道终于可以松一口气，坦然地面对自己~
白天不能很坦然很自由地做自己。
她知道，在这社会上，只做自己是很难生存
她还是菜鸟，还有很多很多很多等着她去学习和面对。

那时...

失恋
到了最后最后的心情，并不是想了断自己，
而是想坐在世界最高的屋顶上，看着天空
想着自己有一双隐形的翅膀，带我飞到远远的地方
任我怎么样飞，都不会掉下来。

我还记得
他们陪我唱李圣杰的 “擦肩而过”
他们听我诉苦
他们陪在我身边，带我到处逛
要不是当时有大家的陪伴，我会怎样？
所以要懂得感恩 ♥

her's guardian angel..

shuwenk..one of my fellow in U time.
i called her sweet wen since she fall in love
with her current love one.. :)
not yet draw her love one's face..
just bcos haven't meet him yet..
wish she will always be happy
and more happier with her love one..

run into rainforest

终于好不容易才鼓气勇气和决心
逃离城市的种种压力
来到这个大森林
因为怕肮脏，怕蚊子都被逼要一一克服



三个小时的船到达森林



船快速的行驶，大大的风迎向脸上，似乎把我的烦恼都抛诸脑后



河的两边都是高高的树木森林，虽然一路上都是一样的景色，但是很写意



下了毛毛雨



我们住的地方 猫咪哪里都可以看见，可以这张猫咪的照片是我拍的，所以很喜欢



住的地方的对面就是国家公园 需要坐船过另外一条河才到早上朦朦胧胧的雾好美



昨晚到森林的时候，跟了我七年的运动鞋开嘴了， 买了RM8.90的塑胶鞋，不怕进水了



到达那里的清一色都是外国人，有来自德国的，韩国的，波兰的，加拿大的等等
能够跟来自各国国家的人谈话，感觉很不一样，很开心



canoply walkway，从高处看下去有种高高在上的感觉



这森林怎么那么美呢？



终于都爬到最高峰了，最累的一天





很多从外国的小朋友爬到高峰，还可以怦怦跳跳，很活泼！



原始人起火





原始人就是喜欢这样单纯地用打猎过日子





小孩子都不喜欢上学



这些外国真的是真真的旅游者，他们就这样抱着背包，用几个月的时间走一个马来西亚，
能在每个国家留下脚印，真羡慕



是时候回去
我也需要开始新的生活，新的开始，新的环境，新的自己
再见..

她变了..

最近，她病了，两个星期里，病了两次

她第一次体会到，原来生病是那么痛苦

生病期间，她才惊觉，她的朋友真的很少，去的去，走了走

以前，她总是很容易开心，满足

可是现在，开心离她很远很远。。

她只想要别人可以多了解她，但是不想去了解别人

她想要很多很多，但是不愿意再付出

因为她觉得每次都需要付出很多很多，回报才那么一点点

只是希望大了容易失望

她知道她变了，变得孤僻，暴躁，消极，不可理喻，愤世嫉俗

只要别人拥有的，她也想要，她觉得世界不公平

她讨厌工作已经绑住她的时间，她找不到自己的方向，开始质疑

有时，她只想单纯开心度过每一天，可是在她的世界里，不再是那么简单

她也不是不知道自己已经很幸福了，可是就是忘了幸福是什么

虽然她的心坏了，可是她想变好

她只希望每一天她的心可以辽阔一点，为什么就那么难？

thanks of you gave me strength..

I cried a tear
You wiped it dry
I was confused
You cleared my mind
I sold my soul
You bought it back for me
And held me up and gave me dignity
Somehow you needed me.

You gave me strength

To stand alone again
To face the world
Out on my own again
You put me high upon a pedestal
So high that I could almost see eternity
You needed me
You needed me

And I can't believe it's you I can't believe it's true
I needed you and you were there
And I'll never leave, why should I leave
I'd be a fool
'Cause I've finally found someone who really cares

You held my hand
When it was cold
When I was lost
You took me home
You gave me hope
When I was at the end
And turned my lies
Back into truth again
You even called me friend

You needed me
You needed me

a very old song,
like the old version sang by anne murray..
the lyrics has touching me when i felt i gonna lost, but i couldn't
because i know there's always have someone there to gave me strength
that i could not give up..

outside world..

not everyone got a chance to go outside world..

but my bro did..he ald right over alaska around 1 month..
couldn't imagine he did that! that's his dream..

and me...bfore that i never dare to go outside world..
but this time..my bro really makes me wanna go outside world...
see the world...how the world looks like...
but as i said, not everyone got a chance to go out..
outside world looks wonderful but it is not easy..
it would be more tougher..

and my parents was told me..."u also go la, go with rikki"
en..i hope that so..
don't wait till burden is heavy...don't wait till ages..
when the money is ready
when the timing is right..
when the chance is reach.
then only i will go :)

kukup island & garden city

just having a trip to an island & garden city by tour..
bfore that, i don't even know there's an island near JB..
but, the place is great! because i just love natural places..

the way to island we do across yongping..
and do visit to lamb's farm! excited..!
the baby lamb is just look like a little puppy :)


just feel wanna hav one of them..!

and that we reached that island..
is called kukup island :D...cute name

almost same like pangkor island


...i just feel relax when seeing this picture
...the water is so peaceful

this time no more being camera girl but a model :>
there's a lot of me inside these photos...

*wearing uncle's sun glass

we stay kukup island and
had a raining walk that night...
and the famous events is wishing lattern..!
at there, wishing lattern is like legalize..
we wrote all the wishes on the
lattern and putting it fly to the sky..
this i think it is one of the romantic thing can do haha

the garden city!

s'pore river..

kukup is much more i like than garden city..>< because universal studio tickets sold out that day!! sigh..

* mum & dad
the big temple at s'pore

vintage houses i like to captures..

all the way road is sooo clean!

the last photo taken bfore goin back to KL...
2 days 1 night trip is over...
even a short trip but im felt great...
at least i can travel to somewhere fresh..
for me,
actually m'sia hav a lot of places can play :)

after a long "emptiness"..

been no update my blog around erm......

2 months more i think...

so busy and lazy to blog..
but, i still miss my blog..

what's the different between 2 months a go me n current me?
only more stress i have...!
no more free drawing and msn chatting
in new environment during office hour...
that's only design design and design
available in my little world..
i really missing can randomly drawing in office...

what i facing now is all about design and rejection..
almost wanna give up by now...almost...
that mind still non stop think about it...

who could stop me??

well, there's something stop me
to think about negative matter..
is my mind inspired me :)

*updated on 28 june '10...text with a picture upload is a must :D

"The usefulness of a cup is in its emptiness."
要学习，必须以一个空的心态去接受别人的东西，
以求教的心去面对你要学习的对象，
这样才 能够真正把新东西装到空杯子里。

Treat everything with normal heart
对每件事以平常心对待

do not tears..

fish never cry..

i'm weak..but want to be strong and brave!

i just become so weak since he is goin to sabah...always feel lonely..
...even sometimes with family's accompanied..
and don't even feel wan to go outing with frens..

i tot i have brave enough...
but now only i realized i so weak without his accompanied..
i wish i could learn to be strong and brave!
may be i just bu xi guan??
but anyway, he will probably come back on next week..
we r about 1 month separated.

is that a good news or bad news?
i know i should learn to more independent..
learn to live better when someday family/he is not around with me..
just want to cry...y I'm so down now on!

i know both of us will have another harder task/test
when he is come back from sabah..
so, i will always get ready to face..

bless me to being brave and strong!